The God who sees ME

The God who sees ME

El Roi is my favorite name of God because it means the God who sees. He sees me. He wants to have a relationship with me and wants to know every detail of me life even though He is KING of the Universe. He is so good to me. He is my Lord and Savior. Nothing shall separate me from His love. He is All that I need and MORE!


Saturday, December 24, 2016

More little treasures

December 2, 2009
Hebrew 13:5-6 – Be content with what you have. He will never leave me nor forsake me. The Lord is my helper and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.
Hebrews 4:16 – Let me come body unto the throne of grace that I may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Seek His strength.
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December 6, 2009 – By Beloved Bride
Matthew 28:20
And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age. I will lift the veil, and you will see that I had a divine purpose for all you have walked through in this life. One day I will touch your cheek and wipe away the very last tear you will ever cry. One day you will see Me face to face, and heaven and earth will no longer keep us apart. For now, my beloved. I give you my Spirit to guide you everyday, and I command my angels to stand watch over you.
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December 9, 2009
Zech. 9:9
Rejoice Kim! Behold your King cometh unto thee; He is just and having salvation; lowly, and riding upon a white horse. He is your Knight, and your are a princess.
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February 19, 2010 – Fire and Passion
I beseech you, O Lord, to review me inwardly and outwardly that as You wouldest not have them to be hindered by bodily pleasure you may make me vigorous with spiritual purpose; and refresh me in such sort things transitory, that you may grant me rather to cleave to things eternal through Jesus Christ my Lord.
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February 24, 2010
Search of spirits, try thou my reins and heart. Cleanse thou my inward part, turn, overturn and turn. Wood, hay, and stubble see, spread out before thee. Savior of sinners, burn out of the depths I cry, perfect me or I die: Perfect me, patient one; In they revealing light, I stand confessed outright, undone.
O to be holy! Thou wilt not say me nay who movest me to pray. Enable to endure: Spiritual cleansing fire, fulfill my heart's desire. Make me pure.

3 x 5 cards - treasures

So I have this little book of 3x5 cards. When I came back from Excel, I started really seeking God. I had just gone through a relationship that drew my eyes away from Jesus. At Excel I started to fall in love with Jesus... He was my constant companion and my comforter. I was stripped away from everyone I loved; I was 16. So I remember laying in my bed feeling quite alone when I flipped open the Word and it came alive to me. He started to speak to me like never before. I went Journey to the Heart shortly after that. Then, over that next year I really started to read my Bible. It was a time of falling in love, in growing close to Jesus. Here are a few of my little devotionals that I wrote back then.

November 23, 2009
God loves me so much that He would rather die than live without me. He paints the sunsets for me to know how much He loves me. Open my eyes, O God, to never miss a day to let you express your love for me.
1 John 3:1 paraphrased
Behold, what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that I should be called the princess of God: therefore the world knoweth me not because it knew Him not.
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November 26, 2009 - Thanksgiving - Psalm 27:10 - God first
Psalm 145:19-21
The Lord will fulfill every desire I have. He's always there waiting to fulfill my need for love and realness, but I turn astray to my own "god." Forgive me O Lord and put me back under your wings. "But I am not a man; I am the Lord and your Prince. I will never leave you nor forsake you, my beloved bride. I will not let you down as long as you look up."
Psalm 23:4 He is close beside me, protecting and comforting. Thank you for being the One who walks in when others walk out. What a comfort to know I am never alone.
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November 27, 2009
Mark 13:33-37 Watch and Pray
Luke 21:8 many false gods
1 Peter 5:6-8 Humble yourselves to God. Cast your cares upon Him. Be sober. Be vigilant.
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December 1, 2009
Psalm 139 El Roi thou hast known me. You know my yearnings and you can fulfill them. Though has been behind and before, and hath lain thine hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it. The thought that Your thoughts toward me are more than the number of the grains of sand. You hear my prayer. When I cry to you, You are able to keep me from falling. You are in control. Set a watch before my moth. You are in control. Set a watch before my mouth; keep the door of my lips. You know me. Praise your Holy Name.

Sunday, November 13, 2016

Resting in the Storm

In the midst of the storm my heart finds hope in You. In the midst of pain, heartache, and distress, I "trust in the Lord" and not "put confidence in man" (Ps 118:8-9). When my soul wants to take my anger out on people who say it's going to be fine and say "in my haste, all men are liars" (Ps 116:11). When it feels like I'm standing at the edge of a dock without any plank to walk on next, the only thing to do is jump unto the murky waters below. When it feels like "the sorrows of death compassed me, and the pains of hell gat hold upon me: I found trouble and sorrow" (Ps 116:4). I look down into the murky waters of the unknown and the fear wells up in my soul. My emotions and fears, they drive me. My heart knows that's not right, but somehow I keep getting driven down the path that leads to misery. I try to bottle my emotions and be brave. They splat out like acid on those I love. Emotions can't be trusted. Emotions must die, so I drown them out with the noise of people. I'm alone in a crowd, but the noise wears me down, so I can sleep. My heart and mind fully dumb and battered, I turn to let Him in. I open the door to my heart only a crack and he "delivered my soul from death, mine eyes from tears, and my feet from falling" (Ps 116:8). The murky water isn't a dark abyss because "unto the upright there arises light in the darkness" (Ps 112:4). How do I deal with the sea of raging emotions, thoughts and feelings not even expressed? What can steady my heart? I "shall not be afraid of evil tidings; his [my] heart is fixed, trusting in the Lord. His [my] heart is established, he [I] shall not be afraid" (Ps 112: 7-8). "The Lord preserves the simple: I was brought low, and he helped me (Ps 116:6)." His Words, they comforted me. He gave me that affirmation I so desperately needed. The most wonderful part was when he told me how to be calm in the storm. I need to tell this to my soul daily. "Return unto your rest, Oh my soul; for the Lord have dealt bountifully with thee...I will walk before the Lord in the land of the living" (Ps 116:7,9). "I shall not die, but live and declare the works of the Lord" (Ps 118:17). "He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my foot upon a rock, and established my goings" (Ps 40:2). He has "anchored my soul" (Heb 6:19). The storms won't be calmed, but I know this... my soul will be steadfast in Him. He can handle my wild emotions. He can calm my fears. He can give me reason to trust and rest. My soul cries out to YOU alone sweet Jesus!

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Reminiscing over my time in CA

Hi guys,
I'm still alive :D haha. I've been really busy with school.

Today I found these pictures and I had to post them. I miss my CA friends so much!