The God who sees ME

The God who sees ME

El Roi is my favorite name of God because it means the God who sees. He sees me. He wants to have a relationship with me and wants to know every detail of me life even though He is KING of the Universe. He is so good to me. He is my Lord and Savior. Nothing shall separate me from His love. He is All that I need and MORE!


Saturday, December 27, 2014

Deeper Christian - Intimacy with Jesus - Re-blog

I am subscribed to Deeper Christian website. I read this just now, and it was a great message that inspired me to have that constant abiding relationship with Jesus! Please go check it out.

Deeper Christian - Intimacy with Jesus


Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Cry out to Jesus

"God is not aloof. He says continually through the centuries, "I'll help you, I really will. When you're ready to throw up your hands–throw them up to me." Speaking about when we are calling out to God,
"That is the literal meaning of the Hebrew word used countless times in the Old Testament when people called upon God. It means to cry out, to implore aid. This is the essence of true prayer that touches God. Charles Spurgeon once remarked that "the best style of prayer is that which cannot be called anything else but a cry." Isn't that what God invites us to do all through the Bible? Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know" (Jer.33:3) God is not aloof. He is not disconnected. He says continually through the centuries, "I'll help you, I really will. When you don't know where to turn, then turn to me. When you're ready to throw up your hands– throw them up to me. Put your voice behind them, too, and I'll come and help you."
The Real Force
Satan's main strategy with God's people has always been to whisper, "Don't call, don't ask, don't depend on God to do great things. You'll get along fine if you just rely on your own cleverness and energy." The truth of the matter is that the devil is not terribly frightened of our human efforts and credentials. But he knows his kingdom will be damaged when we lift our hearts to God. Listen to David's confident assertion in Psalm 4:3. "Know that the Lord has set apart the godly for himself; the Lord will hear when I call to him." That was David's whole posture, his instinct, and especially his approach to warfare. It doesn't matter what the Philistine armies have. If we call out to God, he will give us the victory. If we backslide and don't call, then we can be defeated by a tiny army. I can almost hear David saying, "You can chase me, you can persecute me, you can do anything you want–but when I call on God, you're in trouble! The Lord will hear which I call to him."

All of this quoted from Jim Cymbala Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire. It just touched my heart, as a message from Jesus!

Thursday, October 30, 2014

The Truth that set me free

Hi Everyone,
So, I titled this post "The Truth that set me free" because God revealed something so huge to me a year ago..... The truth of my identity "in Christ." What we believe is ultimately what we become, and this aspect of the gospel was so foreign to me, I had never even heard about it till I went to Ellerslie. What the phrase "In Christ" is referring to is the part of the gospel that is rarely emphasized, and that's what happened during/after Jesus died on the cross. Yes, He paid for our sins and that means we can go to Heaven, but that's only half of the what Jesus' blood fully paid for! 2 Corinthians 5:21 says, "For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God."
At the cross he exchanged our sin for His righteousness. Because we are IN Christ, God sees us as literally righteous through His Son. It's not that there's a robe exchange and we hid from God so He won't peak under the robe and find filth... But actually WE are righteous! I'm not talking about the actions... But He made us righteous, in Him, while taking on our sin. AND He made a way for His Spirit to live in us and fill us and enable us to live the Christian life. I'm in Christ and He's in me. It's a much intimate picture of my relationship with Christ then I had before... This type of life means VICTORY, PEACE, JOY, FREEDOM, LOVE are all truly possible as I become to focused on Him and letting His Spirit fill me... Before I viewed it as, I get saved and do good things for God to please Him.... Now it's all about knowing Him and good things and fruit flow naturally out of an abiding relationship with Him. Oh my, I'm getting so excited just writing this because He's been cultivating this truth and the Spirit filled life all this year... and I'm SOOOOO excited... This is Truth, and life filled, because it's Jesus Himself filling and using my body to do His impossible tasks here on earth.... I may not always live this abundant life, but I'm telling you one thing, I've seen the victory in it, and I'm wanting more of Jesus!

Ok. so I want to end my passionate speech, with some helpful resources in case you are interested in pursuing this idea of being "In Christ."

1. Who I am by Jerry Bridges this audiobook is free to download for a few days by Christian audio.... It's an incredible book (start on Chapter 2) about our identity in Christ.
All about it, just straight up truth!
3. The Deeper Christian Life by Andrew Murray Pretty much you can't go wrong with Andrew Murray because all of his books are phenomenal and about new life in Christ!
4. Reckoning with Truth by Eric Ludy This message is AMAZING! Thank you Eric for delivering such powerful truth!!!!
5. In Christ by Eric Ludy another amazing message!
6. Freedom in Christ By Jamie Lash WOW, this is amazing!!!!

And some other people that are Spirit filled that have blessed my life with their books...
Leonard Ravenhill
Jackie Pullinger
Oswald Chambers 
Corrie Ten boom

Saturday, October 18, 2014

Be still, my soul!

Jesus has been guiding me into the firey furnace with Him. I read this song this morning and it was perfect for me. 
Katharine Von Schlegal

Be still, my soul! Your God will undertake 
To guide the future as He has the past; 
Your hope, your confidence let nothing shake;

All now mysterious shall be bright at last. 
Be still, my soul! The waves and winds still know His voice who ruled them while 
He dwelt below. 
"Be still, my soul" 
He gave me this verse this morning 
Romans 8:32 He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not with Him also freely give us all things? 
And this one yesterday 
Psalm 139:14 I will praise You, for I am fearfully andwonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.

He is faithful!!!! 

Saturday, September 6, 2014

Doubting Kimberly



So I wanted to share something the Lord's been bringing up several times lately in my life...
He's been showing me that because of lack of feeling, emotion, or drive, I have let those doubts take over and just torment me with so many thoughts. Mostly, two things go on, on days I don't have that overwhelming desire to seek God, I get frustrated with myself and really doubt my Christian life. The other thing that goes on is just the fact that I haven't hit the gold in my relationship with Him. I know it's there because the Bible promises it, but when I don't see but a glimmer, I really start doubting.

I've actually been praying and praying, "Lord, give me a desire for you. Show me how to be filled with the Holy Spirit. Show me why I haven't been radically changed like the people who touched You were. Show me why I have these doubts."

I have to confess my lack of faith in our Faithful God! Like I said, He's been bringing this matter up in my life. Through these confirmations that I will explain, He's been saying to me, "My promises are true and can be BELIEVED, it's time for the doubt to go."

I listen to a lot of audio books and a lot of audio in general, so He'll definitely bring themes up these!

-Revolution in World Missions was audio book that Gospel For Asia sent me, and I was listening to it and K.P Yohannan is an Indian man growing up in India and being called to help call missions from their own country to reach their own people. He now has a huge ministry that's reaching all of Asia.
This book was amazing (and I still have an hour left to listen to) and there was so many parts that stuck out to me. One in particular was the absolute necessity to the Holy Spirit to be the lead in foreign mission and the focus on the gospel as the purpose in it. He explained how in our day and age, Christians have gotten away from the need to preach the gospel- share Jesus- to the people they are trying to reach, and instead replace it with fulfilling earthly needs. Yes, those needs are important, and Jesus teaches very clearly over and over in the Bible that we ARE to be meeting the needs of the poor and needy. It's part of having much! It's part of giving the resources in our life to God and spending it all on what He leads us to... But as K.P pointed out, clean water, education, food, is not going to save a person from Hell. Jesus himself met the needs of so many people, but many of them wanted Him around for the wrong reason. They were looking at the bread and the fish and not the Provider! Is this a mind-set that has crept into many of our belief system unawares? I think so! Kinda goes back to doing good things for God to please Him, as apposed to knowing Him most intimately and hearing His longs for the poor and the needy, the fatherless and the widow, and wanting to give them what He's giving us, being a steward of the resources, and desiring that they might know the Blessed Redeemer too. He even gave an example of one people group who had missionaries come to them and were reached with Christian schools, medical relief, and food, but when the missionaries left, the people turned back to their old religion. And they were worse off because they had a skewed picture of the gospel. It's a completely different mind-set in foreign missionaries.

How did the Lord use this message to speak to me about doubting? Well, mostly that this was one of the doubts that crept in because I realized how I AM just wanting to go to be a missionary to give my resources and love the people, but what power of the Holy Spirit is going to be leading and guiding me and saving the people? I definitely had gotten away from the purpose of reaching people is to tell them about Jesus!!!! He's going to be the lasting difference in their life. So my doubt is do I have it and live in that Holy Spirit?

I've been really praying about going to Mexico this fall to help in an orphanage there. I'd love to be working with kids and taking care of them! Oh, my desire is to do that and share with them the love of Jesus! But when I heard this message I thought, no matter how many hugs, laughter, talking with them, meeting their needs, playing with them, none of this will make a lasting difference, except that they get Jesus through it!

-Pilgrim's Progress. I am editing a dramatic version of this and every time I listen to this part it always gets me. The part where Christian and Hopeful are locked up in the Doubting Castle. I am they are stuck in there until they remember that they have the KEY OF PROMISE!!!!! This is the part Jesus is like, "See here, it's simple, I've giving you the key already! Use it!"

"Well, on Saturday about midnight, they began to pray, and continued in prayer till almost break of day. Now, a little before it was day, good Christian, as one half amazed, brake out into this earnest speech:

Christian. "What a fool," quoth he, "am I to lie in a foul-smelling dungeon, when I may as well walk at liberty! I have a key in my bosom called Promise, that will, I am sure, open any lock in Doubting Castle."
Then said Hopeful, That is good news, good brother: pluck it out of thy bosom, and try."
Then Christian pulled it out of his bosom, and began to try at the dungeon door, whose bolt, as he turned the key, gave back, and the door flew open with ease, and Christian and Hopeful both came out. Then he went to the outward door that leads into the castle-yard, and with his key opened that door also. After, he went to the iron gate, for that must be opened too; but that lock went exceedingly hard, yet the key did open it. Then they thrust open the gate to make their escape with speed; but that gate, as it opened, made such a creaking, that it waked Giant Despair who, hastily rising to pursue his prisoners, felt his limbs to fail; for his fits took him again, so that he could by no means go after them. Then they went on, and came to the King's highway again, and so were safe because they were out of Giant Despair's rule.
-Adventures in Odyssey episodes "Imagination Station part 1 and 2." This one was about Digger who goes to the time of Jesus' death and resurrection. The passage is John 20:24-29. Jesus had told his disciples he was going to be risen up... The women had seen him personally at the grave, ALIVE... But Thomas could not believe that He was indeed alive. I have always written Thomas off, like yeah that's just old doubting Thomas... But it struck me while listening, do we realize that Thomas dearly loved Jesus? He WAS very passionate about Jesus, that's why he wasn't willing to be satisfied with a counterfeit. He ONLY wanted HIS Jesus. Yes, he did doubt, and this is what Jesus was confirming in my life. To us, it's pretty obviously looking in thinking, why didn't he just believe? But how much hard it is for us or ME to just believe and cast aside all doubts? That's me, when it I should be rejoicing and believing and in fulness of His presence, I'm really quite blindly not accepting the fact that YES I AM A BELIEVER. YES I HAVE THE HOLY SPIRIT. Yes, more in my Christian walk is possible. Yes, I may not have hit gold, but the first step to getting to that gold is refusing to allow doubts in! And instead believe and trust in His promises...
-OH! Side thought/confirmation this wasn't in an audio confirmation but, one day the thought crossed my mind. What protects us against the blows of the enemy? The Shield of faith.... What is faith it's the action of BELIEVING! Also what fights the attacks of the enemy? The Sword the Spirit. What is this other than the promises of the Bible, and the Holy Sprit?
-OK, so it all of this summed up very well in an audio book that just randomly started on the chapter of "Doubts" from the book "The Christian's Secret to a Happy Life" by Hannah Whitall Smith. WHOA, I'm just going to copy paste the large sections of this because it's like God was like, "I'm telling you the answer, HERE IT IS!" It's very clear all these themes! OK I copied in huge chunks and emboldened the parts that hit me.
A great many Christians are slaves to the habit of doubting. No drunkard was ever more utterly bound by the chains of his fatal habit than they are by theirs. Every step of their whole Christian life is taken against the fearful odds of an army of doubts, that are forever lying in wait to assail them at each favorable moment. Their lives are made wretched, their usefulness is effectually hindered, and their communion with God is continually broken by their doubts. And although the entrance of the soul upon the life of faith, of which this book treats, does in many cases take it altogether out of the region where these doubts live and flourish; yet even here it sometimes happens that the old tyrant will rise up and reassert his sway, and will cause the feet to stumble and the heart to fail, even when he cannot succeed in utterly turning the believer back into the dreary wilderness again.
We all of us remember, doubtless, the childish fascination, and yet horror, of that story of Christian’s imprisonment in Doubting Castle by the wicked giant Despair, and our exultant sympathy in his escape through those massive gates and from that cruel tyrant. Little did we suspect then that we should ever find ourselves taken prisoner by the same giant, and imprisoned in the same castle. And yet I fear to every member of the Church of Christ there has been at least one such experience. Turn to the account again, if it is not fresh in your minds, and see if you do not see pictured there experiences of your own that have been very grievous to bear at the time, and very sorrowful to look back upon afterwards.
It seems strange that people, whose very name of Believers implies that their one chiefest characteristic is that they believe, should have to confess to such experiences. And yet it is such a universal habit that I feel if the majority of the Church were to be named over again, the only fitting and descriptive name that could be given them would be that of Doubters. In fact, most Christians have settled down under their doubts, as to a sort of inevitable malady, from which they suffer acutely, but to which they must try to be resigned as a part of the necessary discipline of this earthly life. And they lament over their doubts as a man might lament over his rheumatism, making themselves out as an “interesting case” of especial and peculiar trial, which requires the tenderest sympathy and the utmost consideration.
And this is too often true of believers, who are earnestly longing to enter upon the life and walk of faith, and who have made perhaps many steps towards it. They have got rid, it may be, of the old doubts that once tormented them, as to whether their sins are really forgiven, and whether they shall, after all, get safe to Heaven; but they have not got rid of doubting. They have simply shifted the habit to a higher platform. They are saying, perhaps, “Yes, I believe my sins are forgiven, and I am a child of God through faith in Jesus Christ. I dare not doubt this any more. But then—” And this “but then” includes an interminable array of doubts concerning every declaration and every promise our Father has made to His children. One after another they fight with them and refuse to believe them, until they can have some more reliable proof of their being true, than the simple word of their God. And then they wonder why they are permitted to walk in such darkness, and look upon themselves almost in the light of martyrs, and groan under the peculiar spiritual conflicts they are compelled to endure.
Spiritual conflicts! Far better would they be named did we call them spiritual rebellions! Our fight is to be a fight of faith, and the moment we doubt, our fight ceases and our rebellion begins.
I desire to put forth, if possible, one vigorous protest against this whole thing. Just as well might I join in with the lament of a drunkard and unite with him in prayer for grace to endure the discipline of his fatal indulgence, as to give way for one instant to the weak complaints of these enslaved souls, and try to console them under their slavery. To one and to the other I would dare to do nothing else but proclaim the perfect deliverance the Lord Jesus Christ has in store or them, and beseech, entreat, command them, with all the force of my whole nature, to avail themselves of it and be free. Not for one moment would I listen to their despairing excuses. You ought to be free, you can be free, you MUST be free!
Will you undertake to tell me that it is an inevitable necessity for God to be doubted by His children? Is it an inevitable necessity for your children to doubt you? Would you tolerate their doubts a single hour? Would you pity your son and condole with him, and feel that he was an interesting case, if he should come to you and say, “Father, I cannot believe your word, I cannot trust your love”?
I am convinced that to many people doubting is a real luxury, and to deny themselves from indulging in it would be to exercise the hardest piece of self-denial they have ever known. It is a luxury that, like the indulgence in all other luxuries, brings very sorrowful results; and, perhaps, looking at the sadness and misery it has brought into your own Christian experience, you may be tempted to say, “Alas! This is no luxury to me, but only a fearful trial.” But pause for a moment. Try giving it up, and you will soon find out whether it is a luxury or not. Do not your doubts come trooping to your door as a company of sympathizing friends, who appreciate your hard case, and have come to condole with you? And is it no luxury to sit down with them and entertain them, and listen to their arguments, and join in with their condolences? Would it be no self-denial to turn resolutely from them, and refuse to hear a word they have to say? If you do not know, try it and see.
 But all the while you are as really indulging in hard and wrong thoughts of your Lord as ever you did of a human enemy; for He says He came not to save the righteous, but sinners; and your very sinfulness and unworthiness is your chiefest claim upon His love and His care.
As well might the poor little lamb that has wandered from the flock and got lost in the wilderness say, “The shepherd does not love me, nor care for me, nor remember me, because I am lost. He only loves and cares for the lambs that never wander.” As well might the ill man say, “The doctor will not come to see me, nor give me any medicines, because I am ill. He only cares for and visits well people.” Jesus says, “They that are whole need not a physician, but they that are sick.” And again He says, “What man of you, having an hundred sheep, if he lose one of them, doth not leave the ninety and nine in the wilderness, and go after that which is lost, until he find it?” Any thoughts of Him, therefore, which are different from what He says of Himself, are hard thoughts; and to indulge in them is far worse than to indulge in hard thoughts of any earthly friend or foe. From the beginning to the end of your Christian life it is always sinful to indulge in doubts. Doubts are all from the devil, and are always untrue. And the only way to meet them is by a direct and emphatic denial.
And this brings me to the practical part of the whole subject, as to how to get deliverance from this fatal habit. My answer would be that the deliverance from this can be by no other means than the deliverance from any other sin. It is to be found in the Lord and in Him only. You must hand your doubting over to Him, as you have learned to hand your other temptations. You must do just what you do with your temper, or your pride. You must give it up to the Lord. I believe myself the only effectual remedy is to take a pledge against it as you would urge a drunkard to do against drink, trusting in the Lord alone to keep you steadfast.
Like any other sin, the stronghold is in the will and the will to doubt must be surrendered exactly as you surrender the will to yield to any other temptation. God always takes possession of a surrendered will. And if we come to the point of saying that we will not doubt, and surrender this central fortress of our nature to Him, His blessed Spirit will begin at once to work in us all the good pleasure of His will, and we shall find ourselves kept from doubting by His mighty and overcoming power.
The trouble is that in this matter of doubting the soul does not always make a full surrender, but is apt to reserve to itself a little secret liberty to doubt, looking upon it as being sometimes a necessity. “I do not want to doubt any more,” we will say, or, “I hope I shall not”; but it is hard to come to the point of saying, “I will not doubt again.” But no surrender is effectual until it reaches the point of saying, “I will not.” The liberty to doubt must be given up forever. And the soul must consent to a continuous life of inevitable trust. It is often necessary, I think, to make a definite transaction of this surrender of doubting, and to come to a point about it. I believe it is quite as necessary in the case of a doubter as in the case of a drunkard. It will not do to give it up by degrees. The total abstinence principle is the only effectual one here.
Then, the surrender once made, the soul must rest absolutely upon the Lord for deliverance in each time of temptation. It must lift up the shield of faith the moment the assault comes. It must hand the very first suggestion of doubt over to the Lord, and must tell the enemy to settle the matter with Him. It must refuse to listen to the doubt a single moment. Let it come ever so plausibly, or under whatever guise of humility, the soul must simply say, “I dare not doubt; I must trust. The Lord is good, and HE DOES love me. Jesus saves me; He saves me now.” Those three little words, repeated over and over,—“Jesus saves me, Jesus saves me,”—will put to flight the greatest army of doubts that ever assaulted any soul. I have tried it times without number, and have never known it to fail. Do not stop to argue the matter out with your doubts, nor try to prove that they are wrong. Pay no attention to them whatever; treat them with the utmost contempt. Shut your door in their faces, and emphatically deny every word they say to you. Bring up some “It is written,” and hurl it after them. Look right at Jesus, and tell Him you trust Him, and you mean to trust Him. Let the doubts clamor as they may, they cannot hurt you if you will not let them in.
This very day a perfect army of doubts stood awaiting my awaking, and clamored at my door for admittance. Nothing seemed real, nothing seemed true; and least of all did it seem possible that I—miserable, wretched—could be the object of the Lord’s love, or care, or notice. If I only had been at liberty to let these doubts in, and invite them to take seats and make themselves at home, what a luxury I should have felt it to be! But years ago I made a pledge against doubting; and I would as soon think of violating my pledge against intoxicating liquor as to violate this one. I DARED not admit the first doubt. I therefore lifted up my shield of faith the moment I was conscious of these suggestions, and handing the whole army over to my Lord to conquer, I began to say, over and over, “The Lord does love me. He is my present and my perfect Saviour; Jesus saves me, Jesus saves me now!” The victory was complete. The enemy had come in like a flood, but the Lord lifted up a standard against him, and he was routed and put to flight; and my soul is singing the song of Moses and the children of Israel, saying, “I will sing unto the Lord, for He hath triumphed gloriously: the horse and his rider hath He thrown into the sea. The Lord is my strength and my song, and He is become my salvation. The Lord is a man of war; the Lord is His name.”
It will help you to resist the assaults of this temptation to doubt, to see clearly that doubting is sin. It is certainly a direct disobedience to our Lord, who commands us, “Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” And all through the Bible everywhere the commands to trust are imperative, and admit of no exceptions. Time and room would fail me to refer to one hundredth part of these, but no one can read the Psalms without being convinced that the man who trusts without a question, is the only man who pleases God and is accepted of Him. The “provocation” of Israel was that they did not trust; “anger also came up against Israel, because they believed not in God, and trusted not in His salvation.” (Psalms 78:17-22.) And in contrast, we read in Isaiah concerning those who trust, “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on Thee, because he trusteth in Thee.” Nothing grieves or wounds our hearts like doubting on the part of a friend, and nothing, I am convinced, grieves the heart of God more than doubting from us.
Dear, doubting soul, go and do likewise; and a similar victory shall be thine. As you lay down this book take up your pen and write out your determination never to doubt again. Make it a real transaction between your soul and the Lord. Give up your liberty to doubt forever. Put your will in this matter over on the Lord’s side, and trust Him to keep you from falling. Tell him all about your utter weakness and your long-encouraged habits of doubt, and how helpless you are before your enemy, and commit the whole battle to Him. Tell Him you will not doubt again; and then henceforward keep your face steadfastly looking unto Jesus, away from yourself and away from your doubts, holding fast the profession of your faith without wavering, because He is faithful who has promised. And as surely as you do thus hold the beginning of your confidence steadfast unto the end, just so surely shall you find yourself in this matter made more than conqueror, through Him who loves you.

Ahhh, what a beautiful relieve and joy and realize it's that SIMPLE!! Jesus Saves me, Jesus Saves me now! I'm going to close with that simple phrase and also the Key of promise unlocks doubting castle!

Saturday, July 5, 2014

Picture update October 2013 - April 2014

Hello Everyone,

Isn't Jesus so good! He is so merciful and kind and His enabling grace and unconditional love capture my heart every time I contemplate Him.

Back in October of last year I went to Ellerslie's 9 week basic semester, and I posted a lot of the little summaries of the messages we heard, but I didn't post any pictures, so here are some pictures from those 9 weeks.












Then in December, my family and I came home to enjoy Christmas in our North Carolina home. My friend Juany from Mexico came to spend Christmas with us. We had a blast! We shopped and shopped until we dropped, watched movies, did some sewing, a horse ride, and of course cooking mexican food! It was a wonderful visit! I love her so dearly!





Well, then we went up to Chicago in January, to start working on remodeling Heritage which was a girl's dorm. We were planning on staying a month... and we are still here! In the first 4 months though, boy, we were working on many many projects... like re-decoracting houses around campus, cleaning, cooking, packing up things from the dorm building. Here are pictures of our time here. You'll see many friends that have graciously come along to serve the Lord together. There's also pictures of cooking, cus we did lots of that. :)










I'll have to post more another time. :) I only got to April, and I've made another trip to Ellerslie, so I definitely have more to post. OK, goodnight!



Tuesday, June 10, 2014

CareNet - Walking for Pregnancy Services

Hi Everyone! I'm going to sponsored walk by CareNet this Saturday!

Here's my runner page:

http://www.fundeasy.com/m/1911117/


And CareNet has a lot of services for pregnant women needing help!
"CareNet Pregnancy Services of DuPage works to provide emotional support, spiritual counsel, and practical help to anyone dealing with the effects of an unplanned pregnancy; both assisting women to make life-affirming decisions and offering healing to those with an abortion in their past. CareNet also works to prevent unplanned pregnancy through our abstinence-until-marriage program, Amplify Youth Development. For more information, visit our website at CarenetDupage.com." -from information

I'm looking forward to it! 

Have fun!

Friday, May 2, 2014

Resurrection of Christ - Reflections


Resurrection of Christ - Reflections


      When Jesus died on the cross He said it is finished (John 19:30), that meant that everything He came to earth to do was finished and death was defeated. That meant that He finished setting the captives free and breaking the bonds and He finished His ministry. He finished the battle. He had given up His life, His blood. Every aspect of this was final. It was completed when God through His power raised Christ from the dead (Romans 8:11). Because He was risen from the dead, He made it possible to have His Spirit in us. The crucifixion was the battle ground with death, then the resurrection was the Victory. Our old man now dead we are free to have His Spirit in us. We are risen with Him and have the victory in Christ. That victory means no longer being enslaved to sin, and free to know Him and have that relationship with Him (Romans 6:9,11,14). He lives in us. His death was the payment, and His resurrection was the Hope and Joy and Life! In John 11:25 Jesus tells us that truly He is the resurrection and that when we believe Him we will live.  

     Jesus literally put his righteousness on us and took our filthy rags of righteousness. He truly gave us His life and made a way for us to be IN HIM. All we have to do is believe and act in belief, which is called faith, this truth (Phil. 3:9)! His resurrection made the way for His Spirit to live in us and to walk in newness of life (Romans 6:4).

     Over Easter we heard a lot about the resurrection part of the gospel. It really hit me afresh just how incredible that aspect was. Because it was the victory telling that the cross work was finished, it stood out how it is the Hope of the gospel. No one could have had that power to be risen from the dead, that was ONLY God raising Him from the dead. That Spirit that rose Jesus up, can live in ME! I have to be solidly grounded on the fact of my old man crucified with Christ, and Christ crushing the devil, but another part of it, is just believing that when He rose up, He rose me up in Him too, and now I’m made new and fresh. Being in Him, and Him in Me, that power of Christ and the Holy Spirit within, is the power to do as He would, and literally live out the victorious life!

Death of Christ- Reflections

My reflections on the Death of Christ and what that means to me!




     The death of Christ really starts with the way He humbled Himself even before the cross. Isaiah 53 explains what He went through to humble Himself and bear our griefs and carry our sorrows, and be smitten and afllicted. It says He was not comely, He was the despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief, and we esteemed Him not. By His stripes we were healed, He was as the sheep going to the slaughter, and He was cut off from the land of the living. In Phil 2:7-8  it also describes how much He humbled Himself. Just wrapping my mind around the first list was mind boggling, but He literally took the lowest of the low. He humbled Himself even unto the death of the cross and was separated from the Father. He became sin for us (2 Corinthians 5:21). Just did this all out of love for us! That we could too be crucified with Him, and the flesh that has enslaved us might die on that cross (1 Peter 3:18), so that we might receive His Holy Spirit that literally lives in us and through us and that we would be brought to God. He destroyed the devil who had the power of death as well (Hebrews 2:14). Jesus literally tasted death for every man (Hebrews 2:9).

     Christ did all of this to free us first from the penalty of sin, but also that problem of sin. Flesh had a very strong bond on us and we were enslaved. Romans 6:2-6 shows us very clearly that the old man was crucified and therefore made us free in Christ, through His death. How rich the meditation. The death must come first though. Through that death, burial and resurrection we can now live with Him. Verse 11 tells us to reckon this, old man dead! The death is the foundational truth of the gospel that Paul emphasizes when he says that he did try to know more than Christ and Him crucified. What happened at the cross and what does it mean to me? In death, is a very strong picture. There’s nothing deader than death, so when my old man died, I was completely separated from it. Just as Christ died and took in the sin of the world, so He took my sin too. He was crucified with MY old man. The Old Kim is dead on the cross. I was buried with Christ and now I’m risen with Him. Sin has no more hold on me and this is truly freedom in Christ. 

Thursday, April 24, 2014

My Study on 2nd Timothy





     The Second book of Timothy is a letter filled with instruction, encouragement, sentiment, and inspiring charges. The book falls in the middle of the New Testament after the gospels and is written by the apostle Paul. Sadly these are his last words as after running the race, and finishing well. His race was one that reflected the most extraordinary and extreme dedication to his Savior and the preaching of the gospel. Paul went through innumerable intense difficulties which include beatings, stoning, stripes, shipwrecks, stuck in the sea, pain often, fasting, peril of every sort, prison all for  the sake of Christ (1 Cor. 11). He truly gave all! In the midst of this, he trained up a young man called Timothy who was like a son to him. He was training him up in the  faith to to be that radical preacher of Jesus Christ. Timothy because a bishop in one of the churches in Asia. This letter is his last words to Timothy, his beloved son in the faith. During the time of this letter, Paul was imprisoned by the Emperor Nero in Rome.

     Paul wrote this book to Timothy as instruction manual before he took the role of bishop in the church of Ephesus. He intended Timothy to be inspired to press all the harder as a soldier of Christ enduring hardships to the end of the course. He prepared Timothy for the role of a bishop by warning him and commanding him. The Holy Spirit I believe is showing us through the faithful life of Paul how we should go about in our Christian walk, how we must cling to God and press ever harder to know Jesus more. We do this through handling the Word of God correctly, also not participating to the perilous of times though allowing even a bit of selfishness or pride to sink in. 

     The Spiritual truths the Lord revealed through the study of this book are Christ in us gives us grace to endure to the end, even through hard times of persecution. He keeps what we commit to Him, He is faithfulness is forever. Out of love for Him, we must cast aside anything that distracts our gaze from Him whether it’s selfless or not placing Him first in our heart. Christians will indeed be persecuted, but the spiritual benefits and relationship with Christ outweighs anything minutely hard here on earth. 

     I spotted Jesus’ tracks in this book! He is right here as He is in every other book of the Bible! He was with Paul giving Him grace and strength in every dark hour, He was inspiring Paul to give these Words not only to Timothy but also to us. He was seen as Faithful, even when we are faithless, Deliverer in hard times, Helper and Sustainer, and Instant Servant, Risen Savior, Teacher of every truth are seen in this book. 

     The application that I have been pressed in upon after this study is to be serious about my faith in Him and allow Him to be King in every area. So often I allow my relationship with Jesus to be an area in my life where He’s part of my life and I sometimes pursue Him, but mostly just do enough to get by. No, He needs to be my constant obsession! One of the days we watched a documentary on what men go through to become a Ranger. It was very sobering to think, do I give all for the sake of the gospel. Paul illustrates how us Christians need to be as soldiers of God. This is not a light thing, and being passionate about the Jesus who possesses my heart is only a small in comparison to the level Paul gave all for the sake of the gospel. In a very real way, I feel much like Timothy, fearful, weak, and insecure, in my faith, but one thing is for sure, I know my God, and I know He is Faithful. 

     My perspective of the doctrine of Christ has been affected as well. “All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness:” I learned the importance of going to the Word of God with the attitude of I am under the authority of the Word of God and humbly studying it to see what truths be pulled out of it, as opposed to forcing the Word of God to fit my own ideas or beliefs. According to the above verse the Word of God is also for reproving. I have felt conviction in the area in my laziness and laxness in handling the Word of God. God has used the teaching this week to show me how to study the Word of God correctly, and I am excited about using these tools for His glory. And in the same way I have been instructed in righteousness and heard Jesus through this study of His Word.

     I am confident that as my life is more completely yielded to Jesus that this will be noticed in my life. Because it’s Him working in me and living through me. I can do nothing apart from Him. I am trusting Him to apply these truths to my heart. I am grateful for this chance to know my Savior in an even deeper way!

Monday, April 14, 2014

Fortification


Fortification 
The Sacred Shield
 Removing Breaches, Putting the Armor of God.

     When people step into the ministry roll there will be battles because satan hates it when people proclaim God’s glory. Sometimes it’s subtle attacks that come where you don’t see it. Eric and Leslie started up their ministry and the enemy attacked them and they ended up losing their money and having to move a basement. They were under attack and had a Job experience. They did not realize they were in a battle. They did not know to fight it. They were being lied to, and then it became clear and that’s how they started to learn how to fight against the enemy. The enemy’s lies will make sense just because he knows what we would fall for. They thought that the sickness that Leslie had when she would speak was from the Lord. But it was an attack and finally he realized it and started to pray against it. They found out they had breaches in their walls.

     The enemy tests the walls and surveys the perimeter and looks for a breach. He comes up with a plan and then plants a hand grenade to blow up inside the walls. One of Satan’s tactics is to get us to blame his behavior on God. We must know the enemy from our God. James 4:7 - Submit to God and resist the devil and he will flee from you. They started asking God where there was breaches in their life. These are some of the areas God showed them: fear, anxiety, depression, guilt, confusion, insecurity, Family problems, Health problems, Financial problems, Spiritual defeat, etc. We stand on the rock of Jesus Christ and we will be fortified. Nothing could touch Paul, and the enemy couldn’t snuff out his life. If God wants to give your life that is His business. It’s on God’s terms and God’s time table. We submit to God, not the enemy. Fortification does not lead to a life of comfort, but it helps fortify us for the battle. If we cling to the Shepherds ankle the enemy can not touch us.

     So what is God’s pain vs. the enemy’s pain? It’s a matter of Light vs. Darkness 
1 Peter 2:9 says God has called us out of the darkness into His marvelous light. God’s light brings clear, not confused, not blurry, but bright, cheerful and hopeful lives. The opposite of light is darkness. Satan is the prince of darkness, so all things fearful, confused, indistinct, dim and forbidding are from him.

     It’s about Life vs. Death. John 10:10 says that Christ came to give abundant life, not death. The qualities of abundant life are happiness, health, wholeness, strength, purity, spiritual success, and multiplication of blessing. The characteristics of death are disease, sickness, blindness, deafness, muteness, lameness, disorder, feebleness, erosion of strength, erosion of blessing and erosion of resources. 

     God is the Father of lights and Satan the father of lies. In James 1:17 the Father of lights is in whom no shadow of turning. He is the giver of good gifts to His children and is gentle and forgiving. Opposite of those loving Fatherly traits is not of God. There’s Discipline vs. Abuse and the Bridegroom vs. the Harsh Husband. Then there’s the Shepherd vs. Roaring Lion. Jesus is seeking to protect you. God’s pain creates life, enemy’s pain brings shriveled up life. It’s not something you can go after in your own strength. God works through our weakness. 

     The first step to get the place fortified is to start by asking God to identify the breeches. When we don’t take care of the breeches we open the door to the enemy. A breach could be even very small things like turning to movies for rest and refreshment. When God shows what needs to be fortified repentance is in order. Repenting is like realizing your heading to a cliff and turning around and by God’s grace going the other direction. Guard what you put into your mind. Some more common breaches are unconfessed sin, sinful stronghold, and satanic objects or activities. 

     Step two is to make a sacred list wrestle for victory in those areas. Taking back the ground and having faith that God would give the grace to not go back to those things. Step three: The lady who had a demon possessed daughter keep on asking Jesus until she got the answer. It involves wrestling prayer. You can accept the Sovereignty of God. When He is in control there’s a confidence in Him. Our business is to be a believer, and to trust Him. Don’t get tripped over the grand themes, but instead live in the eternal balance. God wants to make us strong so that we can be poured out for others. “I will bless you so you can become a blessing.” We have to pray specific prayers. If you want to progress, into a solider of the cross. You have to be willing to pray specifically. 

     Step 4 is to be on guard against opposition. People would make you want to give up. If you are hit with discouragement, blurry thought, it’s not time to flee to the temple, but instead take up the sword and fight the enemy. They had to put a watch up. Remember the Lord and who He is. Don’t enlarge the enemy. Don’t focus on him, don’t focus on the winds and waves. We must focus on Jesus, believe, abide. We need to know how to employ the armor and how to stand. Walk in faith and know that God wins. There’s a protection. Yes, there’s a lot of noise around. They are exposing his tactics. Jesus, He is able, He longs for our life to be protected. He doesn’t want His children to be harassed. Do not submit to it (like Hudson going out to see the enemy and getting a black eye when he could stay in the protective circle of his father).  We need Jesus in order to grow. Everything that is not of Jesus must be moved out. 

     This was an incredible message to me. It reveals some of satan’s tactics and helps me to know what I need to do to fortify my life. Even as I was listening to this message, the Lord revealed one thing to me that is a breach in my wall. I know that God will strengthen and uphold me if I cling to His ankle. Sometimes satan will attack me and I won’t even notice, but I this message helps reveal some of those tactics and gives me what I need to guard against those. Praise the Lord that He never stops in drawing me close to Him and shows me what I need. 

Solyma


Solyma
The One Who Bears His Hame

     The Rabbis would have the young men wait until they were 30 years old in order to read the book Song of Solomon, because it was a book that needed spiritual maturity in order to apply it spiritually and not be distracted by the physical. They also said that the book of Song of Solomon is like the Holy of Holies. The Rabbis saw it as a picture of God and Israel, but in the New Testament it pictures Jesus and the Church. The veil of the temple was extremely thick. The Holy of Holies was where God lived. When Jesus died on the cross His body was torn, and the veil of the temple was torn in two as well. Believers need the Holy Spirit to unveil the mysteries of this book. That meant that the Holy of Holies was accessible. Just as Jesus had to born of a virgin so that He could be unspotted and pure, we too must be a virgin at heart. The book of Song of Solomon, reveals Jesus as not just a Lord, but a Lover (Psalm 45). Jesus is the Great Bridegroom of our hearts. Isaiah 62:5b shows how a Bridegroom rejoices over his bride so how Jesus rejoices over us. It is a rejoicing that never fades. 

     The fruit of a relationship with a husband and wife is children, and the result of our relationship with Jesus is spiritual fruit. We are not born spiritual virgins but we must let the Lord cut off the flesh and circumcise us. Only then are we spiritual virgins. Names are one’s fame, one’s character, one’s very person. Names are a symbol of relationship, a sign of intimacy. God has a special name written on a precious stone for me (Revelation 2:17). In true marriage, a guy tells the girl that he will die to himself and live for her dreams, fulfillment, and pleasure, then the girl turns and says she will live for Him as well. They are both being fulfilled, but it’s selfless. It’s a picture of Jesus and the church. Christianity is never selfish, ever. It’s a dying to rights that makes it such a giving relationship. The woman goes a step further, and gives up her name (one that defines who she is) to take on His name, and to bear it. Not just to bear His name, but to bear His sufferings, His nature, His character. It’s something not to take lightly. In Song of Solomon, Solomon’s bride take on His name. The feminine version of his name is Solyma. It means Princess of Peace, the Bride of Peace, the one made perfect, the treasure, the reward for the Victor. So as the bride of Christ, who bears the name of Jesus, we are Solyma. We are set-apart for His glory and for Christ alone. She not only bears His name, but also His fragrance, and His beauty. Her King is ravished with her and delights in her.

     In this book there are eight prayers that Solyma prays to her King. Each one can be related Spiritually and each one is a sweet token of love to Him. In each prayer she acknowledges that is not in and of herself and that she is nothing. He is everything to her and she is completely fixated on Him glorious face. 

     I loved this message. Each prayer was so rich and powerful, I definitely have a tendency to focus on myself and how insufficient and miserable I am. But I have to remember to get my eyes back on Him and how wonderful and beautiful He is. My life should be just a declaration of Him and of what He’s done. I long to be beside Him in His work, helping Him in what He is about. My love should find it’s origin in Him alone. Jesus wants a intimate relationship with me. He pursues me and rescues me, and I love and respect Him dearly for Who He is. This beautiful picture of Lover and Loved is so precious because it fills all those little holds my heart that cries out to be loved and to be pursued and protected. He is all of those things! I can lavish all that I have on Him, and one day, cast a crown at His feet. Come Lord Jesus Come!

Consecration


Consecration
Set-apart for His Glory

     The very fact that sold-out Christians look different puts pressure in the world’s lives. People either agree with what they are saying or they have to get rid of them. It’s been the pattern for many generations. Solyma is the bride and the groom rejoices over His bride. As we draw near to His presence, nothing impure can not stand before Him. Not even one little impure thought. One little sin can send us to hell. We are full of junk. Yes, by His blood He has clothed us in His righteousness’ but any junk that remains in our life will be a problem. Christians must count the cost before they come in to this set-apart life because removing what is ungodly may be extremely unpleasant. By His blood He will touch their unclean lips and purge their sin. Every area Christians consecrate to God, it is just for Him. It’s a “yes” before even hearing what He wants done. Sometimes God will ask them to do hard things, like speak when they don’t want to or not speaking when they do want to. Whatever God says goes. Predetermine that you’ll say yes. All my strength belongs to Him, all where I go belongs to Him. Just as the priests consecrated the “right side” of their body to God, Christians spiritually consecrate their strength, direction, their all to Him. 

     Christians have access to the Most Holy Place, the Jews had such a trembling for that most sacred place. But we have our bodies sprinkled with His blood and can come boldly. The veil was scarlet, blue, and purple, which are bruise colors. The presence of God makes one see the junk and say we are so unholy and unworthy. If passing a police officer going over the speed limit causes a huge heart leap, how much more in the presence of God.

     Fear the Lord. Only fear One and tremble before Him. If people tremble before Him, there will be no trembling before others. One would think that if Believers feared Him it would cause them to back up and go away from Him. That’s not true. Even as parents and children, the child trusts the parents. The child draws near because it knows the nature of the parent. The same way it causes us to draw near to Him and say, “Jesus I need you.” He knew that the only way to have right relationship with parent is to run to them and get the punishment. Do not run from God. God wanted the relationship with the people, not necessarily Moses. They should have seen the holiness of God and then longed to climb that mountain. 

     There’s six questions to ask ourselves. If He convicts run to Him not way from Him. Is there anything in my private life I would hesitate to make known here today for the shame it would bring my name? Is there anything in my private life I would hesitate to make known today for the shame it would bring His name? Do I live my private moments carelessly or circumspectly? Do I speak the Gospel in private with my life, my actions, and my purity? -Would they see Jesus in my thought life? A Christian has the life of Christ within. Allow the Living God to radically change my soul so that what is coming out is Jesus. David Livingston went to Africa and a reporter spent a few week with him in order to write about him. When he got back people asked him about David and this is what he said, “He showed me Jesus. And had I been there a moment longer I would have been compelled to become a Christian, although he never spoke a word.”

     Would the world have anything to hold over me? Daniel was a great example of this because there was nothing hidden, the only thing they had against him was that he would pray to God three times a day. The government is now recording everything you are looking at online. Could they hold that over you? Would that dishonor Him?

     Is my private life with God different than my public life with God? When a family gets ready for church and they bicker then when they get out they are acting perfectly. If someone could poke their head in and see you life. Are you living consistently?
As Christians we should have the most reverence because we are the temple of the Living God. We live our lives so flippant, but His perfect righteousness lives within us, so it ought to reflect Him. Jesus is zealous for us as His temple, just as He was when he drove out the money changers and turned over the tables. We are called to be different, holy, other than the world around us. 

     How would we have known sin, except by the law? The law is good, but it cannot bring us into the reality of what we need to be. We are not bound to law, but bound to grace. It’s been fulfilled of the law. It brought us to Jesus. By being in Jesus, we are being brought into a even higher law. The ten commandments are a picture of God. We should want to do those things because we are always showing others who He is. 

     To enter into the Holy of Holies, we must be we must let His holiness purify us. In song of Solomon, the bride is described as clothed in gold, and smelling like frankincense and myrrh. That is a picture of the Holy of Holies. The reality is that I need Grace and I need Jesus. 

     This message goes very well with Solyma because it’s honing it down to an even deeper refinement of Him in my life. What is He calling me to give up so that I can be closer to His presence? As I process this message I am going to be seeking Him to show me what he wants me to give up to Him. “Psalms 19:14: Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer.” All about Him, and less about me. More of my Redeemer, who is Holy and Just!

Laying Down Idols


Laying Down Idols

     When fortifying the walls of the Christian life, God will ask them to lay down idols. The average Christian has dumbed down the evilness of sin to the point where it’s we are confused with the gravity of it. Jeremiah 29:13, “You will seek me and find me, when you search for me with all your heart.” People can not come with a divided heart. Just like a marriage couple, the wife should not have a divided heart by talking to other men and sharing intimate thoughts. An idol is anything that claims the affections we should have for Christ. What occupies the heart and mind when going to bed or in the morning, shows where someone’s affection lies. It’s putting all their time and thoughts onto something other than Christ. This can quickly become an idol in life. 

     Pop culture entertainment was the first thing that God showed the Ludy’s. The foundation of their relationship was started without Movies and Television. They had only watched the second half of a movie together, but it wasn’t founded on empty distractions. These can become addictions because once someone starts to tamper with things, they can start to get dependent on it. One can tell how much something has a hold in their life by how hard it is to give it up. If they are called to “fast” from movies, music, or food, are they most willing to give it up for the sake of Christ? When they were called to give movies up, they didn’t know how to lean on the strength of God at the time when they were tired. When people get super burned out, it’s “normal” to vegetate and space out. The more the Ludy’s allowed it, it was a slippery slope. It got to be an addiction for them because they thought they needed rely on the world to for “refreshment.” They would justify and excuse the weekly vegetating. Nothing in it would point them to Jesus Christ. They compared their selections with what others watched, so it seemed better.

     Psalm 1:1-2 The Ludy’s said that they were walking in the counsel of the ungodly and standing in the way of sinners, and sitting in the sit of the scornful because they were drinking in the messages of the world. They were not able to delight in the the Lord or meditate on the Lord day and night because the mind and heart were focused on the things of this world. But it is awkward when someone is convicted and no one else is. It’s easy to say, “oh there’s nothing bad in it.” But the question should be, “well is there any Jesus in it?” A pastor said the reason they watched movies was because Eric and Leslie did. To the Christians around, we will be deemed a pattern and a template. We may even feel like really strong Christians when our standards are slightly higher than those around, but that doesn’t make it good or right.

     Why is there weakness and powerlessness in the American church? Because they have turned to movies and spots for reprieve, instead of spending it in Jesus’ presence. Also they have allowed worldliness into their church. It’s like bringing manure into the church and digging in to find a nickel. Then they use the nickel to justify the manure pile.   Content in movies is very important. The more manure is added doesn’t mean that there’s more truth in it. Don’t meditate on the ideas of the culture, because that changes the whole mentality. If it’s not of God, it’s of darkness. We can not lay any foundation and get life-changing results. Hollywood has packaged that lie so nicely. For example, Vampires base is evil and it’s making something demonic and evil look beautiful. The very first vampire story was Dracula “son of the devil.” He persecuted the Christians so much that it put Nero to shame. So why would we willingly take counsel from them?

     Finally, the Ludy’s decided to took out things that would give them worldly pleasure and would spend it praying. Playing games, watching movies, would be their immediate go to for entertainment, in fact, it seemed odd to spend the time in prayer. However, God called them to lay down this idol, so they could find His true rest for them. In the “Cross and the Switchblade” the man gives up the same thing, and finds Jesus to be all he needs. It sounded way too extreme at first, but the time in prayer is what lead him to start the ministry with the gang men. He gave his two hours to God instead of to the world and out of it he got a burden from the Lord. “if you can not imagine giving it up,” that is probably a good indicator that you are addicted to it. For the Ludy’s they had to continually die to self because it felt so tedious to pray. Other times they would turn on worship music and walk around and pray. Soon they began to look forward to this time of refreshment in the Lord. “If you are in Me, you are in My presence.” We are at the right hand of the Father and there is pleasure in Jesus (Psalm 16:11). We can doubt this because of experience and emotions. 

     Laying down idols hurts a lot, because we become attached to them. Pruning does not feel good, but the end result is more abundant fruit. Hardships and difficulties are going to come our way. It may not be attractive to the masses but it is to the remnant. The old man doesn’t want to be convicted, but the new man does. Don’t love the world nor the things in the world (1Tim 5:6, 1 John 2:15-16). ”A pure heart is one to which all that is not of God is strange and jarring (Tauler).” Evilness should bother us and make us uncomfortable.  Deuteronomy 18:10b-12  shows how God revealed their need to cleanse this stuff out of their life in order to seal up breaches. 2 Timothy 2:22 says “Run from anything that stimulates youthful lusts.“ They had to give it up completely. Jesus told the rich young ruler to sell it all, not let a little go at a time (Luke 18:17-23). Take God seriously. Give it up out of a love for Him. The seven steps upward and seven steps downward clearly show how it is progressional. One step downward is taking sin lightly or diminishing it. Going upward on the heavenly bound track would be to renew our minds (Phil 4:8 is our checklist) and taking sin seriously. “It is the life that has no time for trifling that counts.” - Amy Carmichael. 

     This message was such a great reminder of why I try to abstain from certain things. I did realize how many things I had allowed to slip and become my go to when I felt tired though. Also, sometimes I did these things more out of a I do this because it’s right not out of a love for Jesus. I am so grateful to have had this clear teaching on why it’s wrong. Simply put it’s going to the world for rest and refreshment instead of Jesus. That IS an idol in our lives for sure. It’s the type of thing where going deeper for Jesus is what we are called to do, and I am called to. He is more than abundantly able to satisfy my deepest longings and give me that much needed refreshment and filling. May I go to Him for every need.