The God who sees ME

The God who sees ME

El Roi is my favorite name of God because it means the God who sees. He sees me. He wants to have a relationship with me and wants to know every detail of me life even though He is KING of the Universe. He is so good to me. He is my Lord and Savior. Nothing shall separate me from His love. He is All that I need and MORE!

Saturday, December 24, 2016

More little treasures

December 2, 2009
Hebrew 13:5-6 – Be content with what you have. He will never leave me nor forsake me. The Lord is my helper and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.
Hebrews 4:16 – Let me come body unto the throne of grace that I may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Seek His strength.
December 6, 2009 – By Beloved Bride
Matthew 28:20
And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age. I will lift the veil, and you will see that I had a divine purpose for all you have walked through in this life. One day I will touch your cheek and wipe away the very last tear you will ever cry. One day you will see Me face to face, and heaven and earth will no longer keep us apart. For now, my beloved. I give you my Spirit to guide you everyday, and I command my angels to stand watch over you.
December 9, 2009
Zech. 9:9
Rejoice Kim! Behold your King cometh unto thee; He is just and having salvation; lowly, and riding upon a white horse. He is your Knight, and your are a princess.
February 19, 2010 – Fire and Passion
I beseech you, O Lord, to review me inwardly and outwardly that as You wouldest not have them to be hindered by bodily pleasure you may make me vigorous with spiritual purpose; and refresh me in such sort things transitory, that you may grant me rather to cleave to things eternal through Jesus Christ my Lord.
February 24, 2010
Search of spirits, try thou my reins and heart. Cleanse thou my inward part, turn, overturn and turn. Wood, hay, and stubble see, spread out before thee. Savior of sinners, burn out of the depths I cry, perfect me or I die: Perfect me, patient one; In they revealing light, I stand confessed outright, undone.
O to be holy! Thou wilt not say me nay who movest me to pray. Enable to endure: Spiritual cleansing fire, fulfill my heart's desire. Make me pure.

3 x 5 cards - treasures

So I have this little book of 3x5 cards. When I came back from Excel, I started really seeking God. I had just gone through a relationship that drew my eyes away from Jesus. At Excel I started to fall in love with Jesus... He was my constant companion and my comforter. I was stripped away from everyone I loved; I was 16. So I remember laying in my bed feeling quite alone when I flipped open the Word and it came alive to me. He started to speak to me like never before. I went Journey to the Heart shortly after that. Then, over that next year I really started to read my Bible. It was a time of falling in love, in growing close to Jesus. Here are a few of my little devotionals that I wrote back then.

November 23, 2009
God loves me so much that He would rather die than live without me. He paints the sunsets for me to know how much He loves me. Open my eyes, O God, to never miss a day to let you express your love for me.
1 John 3:1 paraphrased
Behold, what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that I should be called the princess of God: therefore the world knoweth me not because it knew Him not.
November 26, 2009 - Thanksgiving - Psalm 27:10 - God first
Psalm 145:19-21
The Lord will fulfill every desire I have. He's always there waiting to fulfill my need for love and realness, but I turn astray to my own "god." Forgive me O Lord and put me back under your wings. "But I am not a man; I am the Lord and your Prince. I will never leave you nor forsake you, my beloved bride. I will not let you down as long as you look up."
Psalm 23:4 He is close beside me, protecting and comforting. Thank you for being the One who walks in when others walk out. What a comfort to know I am never alone.
November 27, 2009
Mark 13:33-37 Watch and Pray
Luke 21:8 many false gods
1 Peter 5:6-8 Humble yourselves to God. Cast your cares upon Him. Be sober. Be vigilant.
December 1, 2009
Psalm 139 El Roi thou hast known me. You know my yearnings and you can fulfill them. Though has been behind and before, and hath lain thine hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it. The thought that Your thoughts toward me are more than the number of the grains of sand. You hear my prayer. When I cry to you, You are able to keep me from falling. You are in control. Set a watch before my moth. You are in control. Set a watch before my mouth; keep the door of my lips. You know me. Praise your Holy Name.

Sunday, November 13, 2016

Resting in the Storm

In the midst of the storm my heart finds hope in You. In the midst of pain, heartache, and distress, I "trust in the Lord" and not "put confidence in man" (Ps 118:8-9). When my soul wants to take my anger out on people who say it's going to be fine and say "in my haste, all men are liars" (Ps 116:11). When it feels like I'm standing at the edge of a dock without any plank to walk on next, the only thing to do is jump unto the murky waters below. When it feels like "the sorrows of death compassed me, and the pains of hell gat hold upon me: I found trouble and sorrow" (Ps 116:4). I look down into the murky waters of the unknown and the fear wells up in my soul. My emotions and fears, they drive me. My heart knows that's not right, but somehow I keep getting driven down the path that leads to misery. I try to bottle my emotions and be brave. They splat out like acid on those I love. Emotions can't be trusted. Emotions must die, so I drown them out with the noise of people. I'm alone in a crowd, but the noise wears me down, so I can sleep. My heart and mind fully dumb and battered, I turn to let Him in. I open the door to my heart only a crack and he "delivered my soul from death, mine eyes from tears, and my feet from falling" (Ps 116:8). The murky water isn't a dark abyss because "unto the upright there arises light in the darkness" (Ps 112:4). How do I deal with the sea of raging emotions, thoughts and feelings not even expressed? What can steady my heart? I "shall not be afraid of evil tidings; his [my] heart is fixed, trusting in the Lord. His [my] heart is established, he [I] shall not be afraid" (Ps 112: 7-8). "The Lord preserves the simple: I was brought low, and he helped me (Ps 116:6)." His Words, they comforted me. He gave me that affirmation I so desperately needed. The most wonderful part was when he told me how to be calm in the storm. I need to tell this to my soul daily. "Return unto your rest, Oh my soul; for the Lord have dealt bountifully with thee...I will walk before the Lord in the land of the living" (Ps 116:7,9). "I shall not die, but live and declare the works of the Lord" (Ps 118:17). "He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my foot upon a rock, and established my goings" (Ps 40:2). He has "anchored my soul" (Heb 6:19). The storms won't be calmed, but I know this... my soul will be steadfast in Him. He can handle my wild emotions. He can calm my fears. He can give me reason to trust and rest. My soul cries out to YOU alone sweet Jesus!

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Reminiscing over my time in CA

Hi guys,
I'm still alive :D haha. I've been really busy with school.

Today I found these pictures and I had to post them. I miss my CA friends so much!

Thursday, May 12, 2016

Jesus song

Jesus, You are Savior of my feeble life.
You lavished Your beautiful grace on me 
And I am indebted to You with bonds 
Of love.

Jesus, You are my Liberator. The strong
chains of sin have fallen off and I am free
in You. 

Jesus, You are the Inviter. You invite me
to a love relationship that I never thought 
would be possible. One filled with Your 
awesome presence, with your joy, peace, 
love, in constant dependence on You.

No better Person to love and cherish! 
And I can’t stop thinking of what you’ve
done for me. Freedom in Christ has never
meant so much as You’ve given me more 
and more of Yourself. 

Your promises are mine to claim in You. 
Each one more precious then the one before. 
I adore the way You give of Your life-blood, 
What a wonderful life in You,I don’t deserve.

Jesus, You are the Grace giver.
I hope and rest on it alone! Without 
Your grace enabling me, I am just a 
flat lifeless form. I find my place at 
Your nail-scared feet. I pour out all 
my perfume on You.Jesus, precious Savior! 

Sunday, January 10, 2016

Character Built by Responsibility

Kimberly Krause
Professor Joan Bruckwicki
ENGL 1301.071
January 6, 2016
Character Built by Responsibility 
The process of learning begins the day a baby comes into the world and does not end until death. The rate of development for each child depends on the personal responsibility and interest that is taken in learning. Society recognizes education as one of the essentials of life and the law requires school attendance until the age of 16. Within the last sixty years, college has become an expectation. More recently, homeschooling has become popular and also meets the standards of state accredited schools. The standard for education generally includes mathematics, reading, English, science, foreign language, and history. One of the great strong points of homeschooling is that the individual can learn at his own pace and study more extensively what interests him. 
I was homeschooled and definitely benefited from being able to move at my own pace and to study what interested me. There are definite pros and cons with this form of education. If a student does not take personal responsibility in learning, he risks being incompetent in many areas. I experienced this in the subject of math. While I loved the equations and readily completed problems, my downfall was word problems. I would skip word problems because translating the words in a math equation was hard for me. On the other hand, I thoroughly enjoyed Spanish. This caused me to apply myself, even exceeding the required homework. 
Math was one of those subjects where I frittered my time away in high school. I thought that if I got through it, I would never have to return to the dreaded subject of math. However, now that I have begun college, I realize how my laziness has affected my performance. I had to go back to elementary and high school level math and restudy how to do basic word problems like probability and ratios. I was tutored in math each week, but I felt like a five year old because these concepts were hard for me. If I would have applied myself more, I would have had the necessary tools to grasp these concepts and get better grades. 
Spanish was complete opposite for me. I saw the value of knowing a second language and enjoyed learning and communicating with people. I took lessons for a few months, then I improved by reading, listening, and talking with Mexican friends. Mainly, I just took the opportunities to speak with whomever I could and learned very interactively. The years of study have brought great benefit in my life and in others. One year ago, I had the opportunity to translate for a missions trip. I have since become more responsible after witnessing a practical way of how personal responsibility benefited my life.
Growing up the way I did has taught me to take study and coursework more seriously than many students I have met in college. Perhaps the difference is having a goal in mind before pursuing college. I also believe the work-hard mentality I grew up with have caused my expectations of my own academic achievements to be high. I have seen both negative and positive outcomes based on how I treat my responsibilities. If I had been more faithful in math, I would have been able to take the time I spent relearning concepts and use it more efficiently. Alternately, had I taken a mediocre approach in my Spanish class, I would never have been able to be the mouth piece of so many.

Through my experience of relearning some things from high school, I have been guilty of blaming others for my lack of motivation. I felt that my math teacher did not tap in to my learning style. I felt that it was his responsibility to engage me and inspire me to learn more. In reality it was my own lack of discipline and initiative in school that made it hard to catch up. My education is my responsibility. I have the responsibility to take what I have been given and learn. I cannot blame someone else when I am not willing to do what it takes to succeed. There will be hard things in life to be challenged by, but that is what makes the well-earned results so significant. Taking the opportunities given will not only equip a person with many talents, but will also build life long character. 

How the Sunlight of Summer Affects Mood

Kimberly Krause 
Professor Joan Bruckwicki 
ENGL 1301.071
December 21, 2015 
How the Sunlight of Summer Affects Mood
The shining sun of summer compels people to head outdoors, where the solar panel like system of the body utilizes the rays to boast the feel-good neurotransmitter serotonin and suppresses the sleep inducing hormone melatonin, leaving them feeling energized and refreshed. In contrast, a rainy day makes people slow down and want to curl up inside with a blanket. The fact that people are happier when the sun shines is not just an old wives tale, but is an actual proven fact. The sun affects chemicals and hormones in the body that play a role in mood. In fact, taking a day on the beach does not only make the skin nice and tan, but creates feelings of happiness.
When sunshine rays hit the skin, the body recognizes this as a signal to regulate the chemicals serotonin and melatonin. As light increases, impulse levels of the neurotransmitter in the body also increases. Christie Wilcox gives a clarifying explanation of how serotonin works as a neurotransmitter. “It regulates signal intensity. Think of it like a volume control on a stereo: serotonin changes how efficiently neurons communicate with each other, making other signals louder or softer. Most often, it accompanies other transmitters, changing a neuron’s response to that particular signal. Because of this, it’s used by all kinds of nerve cells all over the body, and serotonin levels can dramatically alter our behavior” (para. 4). As sunlight increases, serotonin increases, and therefore has a positive effect on mood.
Although serotonin is one of the major components to regulate the chemicals, melatonin is also very important. Melatonin regulates sleep, and it can be more accurately described as the sleep hormone. As the sunlight pours in, the melatonin levels drop which maintain a healthy sleep pattern. Just as an imbalance of serotonin causes both positive and negative effects, so melatonin requires a balance. When the hormone rises, some experience Seasonal Affective Disorder, which is that nasty culprit for extra tiredness and winter depression. A healthy balance of melatonin improves a night’s sleep.
Summer is most generally the best time of the year to optimize sun exposure. Deborah Kotz suggests in her article, Host of Health Benefits Attributed to Sunlight, thirty minutes a day is generally a good amount of time to achieve a happier outlook while still caring for the skin’s health (para. 4). With all the activities of summer, it is not hard to get the thirty minutes of sun. It is convenient that sunlight is generally a sign of warm weather, which most people tend to enjoy.
If the outlook on life can be so dramatically altered from just more or less sunlight, then getting out to enjoy the sun should be kept as an enjoyable routine. The sun’s potent effect on the body can be positive or negative. Therefore, balance of the body’s chemicals is key to thriving and feeling energetic. Summer can be filled with lots of fun. Soaking up the sun is another way to enjoy this beautiful time of the year, while maintaining ultimate health and cheerfulness.

Works Cited
Kotz, Deborah. “Host of Health Benefits Attributed to Sunlight.” Health US News. 24 June 2008. Web. 21 December 2015

Wilcox, Christie. “Understanding Our Bodies: Serotonin, the Connection Between Food and Mood.” Nutrition Wonderland. 24 June 2009. Web. 6 January 2016