The God who sees ME

The God who sees ME

El Roi is my favorite name of God because it means the God who sees. He sees me. He wants to have a relationship with me and wants to know every detail of me life even though He is KING of the Universe. He is so good to me. He is my Lord and Savior. Nothing shall separate me from His love. He is All that I need and MORE!


Sunday, November 13, 2016

Resting in the Storm

In the midst of the storm my heart finds hope in You. In the midst of pain, heartache, and distress, I "trust in the Lord" and not "put confidence in man" (Ps 118:8-9). When my soul wants to take my anger out on people who say it's going to be fine and say "in my haste, all men are liars" (Ps 116:11). When it feels like I'm standing at the edge of a dock without any plank to walk on next, the only thing to do is jump unto the murky waters below. When it feels like "the sorrows of death compassed me, and the pains of hell gat hold upon me: I found trouble and sorrow" (Ps 116:4). I look down into the murky waters of the unknown and the fear wells up in my soul. My emotions and fears, they drive me. My heart knows that's not right, but somehow I keep getting driven down the path that leads to misery. I try to bottle my emotions and be brave. They splat out like acid on those I love. Emotions can't be trusted. Emotions must die, so I drown them out with the noise of people. I'm alone in a crowd, but the noise wears me down, so I can sleep. My heart and mind fully dumb and battered, I turn to let Him in. I open the door to my heart only a crack and he "delivered my soul from death, mine eyes from tears, and my feet from falling" (Ps 116:8). The murky water isn't a dark abyss because "unto the upright there arises light in the darkness" (Ps 112:4). How do I deal with the sea of raging emotions, thoughts and feelings not even expressed? What can steady my heart? I "shall not be afraid of evil tidings; his [my] heart is fixed, trusting in the Lord. His [my] heart is established, he [I] shall not be afraid" (Ps 112: 7-8). "The Lord preserves the simple: I was brought low, and he helped me (Ps 116:6)." His Words, they comforted me. He gave me that affirmation I so desperately needed. The most wonderful part was when he told me how to be calm in the storm. I need to tell this to my soul daily. "Return unto your rest, Oh my soul; for the Lord have dealt bountifully with thee...I will walk before the Lord in the land of the living" (Ps 116:7,9). "I shall not die, but live and declare the works of the Lord" (Ps 118:17). "He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my foot upon a rock, and established my goings" (Ps 40:2). He has "anchored my soul" (Heb 6:19). The storms won't be calmed, but I know this... my soul will be steadfast in Him. He can handle my wild emotions. He can calm my fears. He can give me reason to trust and rest. My soul cries out to YOU alone sweet Jesus!